Positivity

Positivity. The thing we most struggle with. Okay, yes it's good to be positive but it's not always achievable. Saying and doing are two different things. As one of my teachers says, a positive mindset does good, you achieve more. You shouldn't shove that message down one's throat though, that's the wrong way to approach it. Encouragement. That's what one needs. You need a goal at the end of it, otherwise there's no reason to strive. 

Wanting and being are two different things. You may want to be positive, but you can't always be, no matter how hard you try. You can tell yourself you're going to have a good day. That encourages you. But sometimes, it's not possible. Some days are awful, you feel like crap and just want to bury yourself in a hole and cry until you forget why. You push your thoughts back so much that you forget about them, then one day you fall apart, not even knowing or realising why. You can lash out on someone without meaning to. You can break when you least expect it. It's all because of those little pieces of sadness you've pushed away and forgotten about, or at least you think you've forgotten. People don't realise that sometimes you can't help but fall apart inside. People don't often notice because you hide it so well. People don't realise that you need encouragement to do better. People don't realise how much a hug means. It's so simple but true. Even that simple question, 'how are you really feeling?' means so much to someone, to actually know that you care about them, instead of the classic 'how are you?' 'Im fine. I'm okay.' approach. People just ask that to make conversation, not to actually find out their true thoughts. No one ever dares to go in deeper and check again if that person is really okay. No one ever bothers. Yes, that person that feels awful may not want to talk about it, but no one ever asks twice. People need to realise sometimes, they won't voluntarily open up, they are waiting for someone to get it out of them, to ask them what's really wrong. That person that feels awful doesn't want to annoy someone with their problems and worries. They want someone to care enough to ask if they are actually fine. They want someone to actually care. They want someone to help but they are too scared to ask. That's why people explode. They hold it in for so long that they can't keep it in and have to let it out. They have to scream so loud, just to calm down. Sometimes, that isn't possible though. A quiet person won't dare to do that, even when they feel like shit. It's because they don't want to bother someone, because it may seem like they are wanting attention. You could explode when you least expect it. You would want to cry so much and just destroy everything, just to let it out. You could cry until there are no more tears. People shouldn't be left to this though. People need to help them, even when they don't ask for it, otherwise it will get even worse. They need guidance, they need someone to talk to, someone they can trust, even if it's a stranger. They need someone who won't judge. They need someone who will encourage them to get better. 

You have to give yourself a little bit of time each day to really think about your emotions. You have to pick out what good has happened today, and what bad has come. You have to think of both sides otherwise it will get worse. You may just end up going down a path where no light is seen, nothing is happy anymore. You have to break loose from your sad thoughts. Just think of one good thing you hope to come of tomorrow. One goal. Give yourself a little encouragement. Even just a simple goal of making your bed that day. Reward yourself with something you love, maybe a movie. You have to remember that every small thing that is good will piece together in the long run and turn into something amazing. Everyday, just add a new goal to your list. Something small, then build it up. Everyday, just give yourself a little time to write down your thoughts on how your day went. Remember that there is always happiness at the end of it all. Think positive about it. Remember why you're doing this. Remember that all of the hell will end one day, however far away that may be. Remember that if you try, anything is possible. Happiness will come. 

Positivity may not come everyday, just remember that. Not everyday is a Fairytale. Not everyday is full of rainbows and sunshine. You have to go through storms to get there. No rainbow, no happiness can come without that rain of sadness in your life. That sadness will remind you that there have been better times and will make you want to get better and back to that place. It will give you encouragement to get there. One day you will be clean. One day the sun will come and shine on you. That storm will end.

Remember though, even when you're better, even when you are clean from that hell you've gone through, it doesn't mean you don't miss it. Don't risk going back on that sadness, don't keep waiting on someone who doesn't value you. No one is worth your time if they don't give back. It will hurt so, so much, but it is worth it. Build yourself up, you will become stronger in the long run. Don't fall back on everything you've achieved since that drought of lost hope. Don't risk being hurt again when you know in your heart that those things, that person hasn't changed. Surround yourself with happiness. Treat yourself with some chocolate, a shopping spree or a pamper night with your friends. Don't turn back to what is in the past. Don't wait.

Just remember, be positive,
xoxofearlessgirl